I cried like a mad pig last night because bf enlisted today. Well, we were talking before our sleep you know.. And the kind of eh-don't-go-lar kind of feeling came to me.

So, sent bf to Tekong today. It wasn't as bad as I had always thought it would be. And and... I finally understood why it was so hard for Aunty when her bf went Taiwan for training. I was tearing on my way back. From taking ferry (I was thinking, he was sitting next to me when we were going there. But why it's only me who got to go home. Sad.) to taking the shuttle bus (I had to sit with a stranger on my way back while I had a nice hand on mine when we were heading to the ferry terminal. Sweet.) back to Pasir Ris. I teared alot knowing that I have to spend my national day alone. It's supposed to be a special day for us. Sigh. I tried not to make the tearing obvious because bf's sister and mother was there. So i wiped my eyes very frequently behind them.

It's like I didn't know other than breaking ups and quarrels, you will feel the pain. The pain of not seeing someone at all for 2 weeks and having to endure the period where you might only get a 2 minute phone call (that's what I had for today at least) from him, not because he doesn't want to meet or call you, but because he can't. He's like no longer a phone call away but a ferry away. ):

If you haven't experience this kind of feeling before, then be more polite and try to keep your comments to yourself until you do. Because you really won't know this kind of feeling unless you've been through it. And if you have had experienced it and thinks that I am over-reacting, then screw you! You must be either some kind of monster with a strong heart or an alien with no emotions!

Okay. Chill chill. I guess PMS is acting up again. I should stop crying and sleep now. I miss you, baby.